

can you see that vapor from her back? she’s freezing and her face no expression.
that’s how you know she’s perfect
You told me to leave,
After what I gave you I could never believe,
That you would ever thieve,
My innocent heart I wore upon my sleeve,
Sure I was naive,
But I will never conceive,
Why you had to make me grieve.

no matter how many times you hold me
under the water with your fingers
not tracing the contours of my own but
rather locked cold around my warm neck or
tickle me with the fondness of
your old razor blade or set my heart
ablaze then douse it in lighter fluid i
will rise again from the remarkably dark
ashes to see only that the flames
singed the aglet of your shoelaces
nor the tips of your hairs already
receding in fear
I don’t need your apologies or your words,
or
your hands
holding mine,
It’s not like I’ve been desperate for you,
for
a
long time.
I’d be lying if I said I could quit you
I’d be lying if I said I knew when to stop
You’re one addiction I’ll never be able
To turn the tables and stop feeding from
They don’t have a rehab for that, you know?
I was blinded by the light in her eyes
Wanting to be lost in her dusky skinInstead
I am stranded in the desert of loneliness
In search of the sun and the moonYears have passed
It is true that I will never find her
ever again



